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About Me Member Lurker PoisonVeneneFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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Haunted.

Thu Sep 22, 2005, 11:43 PM
I have been doing a lot of reflecting. I don't care if I get any sleep tonight. I find it funny that I can write all I want without ever getting tired, yet when I look at the page a hour later, it's all jibberish and mush. I want to write something different. Something new. But I am at a loss. Today I found myself searching my room, tearing everything apart. But when I paused for a bit, I couldn't even remember what I was looking for. I don't really think I was looking for anything. I laugh now because before when I would post journals, I would try so hard to sound smart and interesting. Now I just want to get my point across. I quit everything. All bad habits. I'm done. I still laugh. As of now I totally blame myself for any problem I have ever had. I don't even think that I have a point. I'm staying off the computer for a few days. Now I find myself sitting here, talking to the computer monitor, "praying" that a certain someone will come to my rescue. Ha. My mother told me that the teachers are concerned about me because I don't socialize nearly as much as I used to. My peers just don't intrest me anymore. Old friends tell me I have grown cold. Perhaps. It makes me cringe sometimes to watch kids my age that I have known for years steal money from their parents, or pawn their once loved possesions or even commit special favors just for money so they can get high for a few hours or give their legal friends money to buy them death wrapped in paper. I feel so stupid for ever getting caught up in any of it. I'm afraid I have just become another teenage cliche. Fuck it.
I'm gonna go search my room.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Dallas, TX
  • Interests: Poetry, Reptiles, Music, Books, Cult Classics, Film making, Photography, Werewovles, Bass
  • Favourite movie: Saw, TNBC, May, Try, Ginger Snaps, Vincent
  • Favourite band or musician: Scarling, Blak Sabbath, The Doors, The Faint, Tool, The Distillers, NIN, Incubus, Radiohead
  • Favourite genre of music: Any kind really
  • Favourite artist: Mark Ryden, Tim Burton, Joseph Micheal Linsner, Dali, Escher
  • Favourite poet or writer: Poe, Jim Morrison, Emily Dickinson
  • Shell of choice: My Blanky
  • Skin of choice: The kind that can be removed and thrown away at the end of the night
  • Favourite game: Sausage Sword Fighting
  • Personal Quote: "That's a negative ghost writer."
  • Tools of the Trade: It's a secret

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:iconmwatkins:
thanks for the fav
:iconabhadreshwara:
thanks for the favE!

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I'm the self-acclaimed god of wicked games. Sinister, repugnant bringer of pain.


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:iconpoisonvenene:
I'm a huge Tool fan and your peice just caught my eye, it's really great work.

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"I will love you like none other for I have died a thousand tiny deaths and everytime I died I thought of you."
:iconabhadreshwara:
Thanks! I used the styles of Alex Grey who did the Lateralus art, various shades of red!

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Gather with me, Join my ministry. I'm the way, the future guide.
I'm the self-acclaimed god of wicked games. Sinister, repugnant bringer of pain.


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:iconpoisonvenene:
Yeah I noticed that. It's very good and I hope you will do more!

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"I will love you like none other for I have died a thousand tiny deaths and everytime I died I thought of you."
:iconbanxter:
Hey,

Thank you very much for the :+fav: that you gave me!

I really do appreciate it!

:)

Take care.

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